GO VAIN

This is the comment to Mayowa's on Pens with cojones post about vanity and criticism.
I thought I would do the vain thing to post the comment I wrote, especially since it applies so well on this Wednesday 23rd of June.

You can read his post on www.penswithcojones.com.



Hej, I take the liberty to take up space here though I am not a writer.=) I think it is very interesting to think about criticism, in the world of writers also. I can relate to myself when I used to be a musician who loved standing on stage (oh this wonderful feeling to look out in the theatre) but I can also relate to it since I started doing research and especially after starting my blog. The blog interestingly, gives me piece by piece clues about how I would do the things I had in my head for so long but did not dare to do (when there were no blogs, FB, my space or youtube..). Especially it is nice to think about, when I play music or compose my heart starts beating faster and it is an expression for the moment which I give out, even when recording actually. When writing a book it must be very different. I mean, when music hits my nerves I am content (almost), and if I compose I want to publish it to make it archived to remember. If someone doesn't like it, I would probably argue that this person did not understand.=) If you would, you would say that it is good. =) I know, but to me the way I think about it is more a matter of explaining what did I feel? What did I want to say? Did I manage to put it in tunes, if I did then it can never be wrong =). I realize that there comes the question of evaluating the thought, skills and work behind the creation as well and that it is different when writing a novel. Though when I read vanity, I somewhat agree. It is a driving force which is sort of a prerequisite to want to be heard perhaps. But for me, my driving force has also transformed into justice and anger, and this keeps me going all the way. Vanity does not overcome obstacles, it only creates the foundation. F.ex the more someone criticize me the better they make me, because the more I want to do. And not to be mistaken, this wish of wanting to do more, does not come from the decision of choosing to spend my time proving to some incompetent person that they are wrong, because they are not worth my precious time. It is a driving force which is created at the moment but which raises the question, how much then can I do? At the same time it is a driving force derived from anger, of wanting to achieve something of quality and which no one ever believed was possible from me. This anger is very welcome and is what keeps me on track. Vain I know already that I am, but I think I keep it to a supportable level and somewhat know my limitations, not to mean that I don't try to change my limitations (which is vain). I appreciate these posts which gives me room to express myself. Thank you. =)

Song 1 - take 1

And we have taken off. It will be a long ride so buckle up and relax.I have time.

VAMPIRE IN MY GENES

Invitation cards (made by Kat - I know)

for my 35th birthday vampire dress-along

party filled with blood, garlic and

mysterious passion!

Take 15 please.

HOLDING ON

ART

RESEARCH SHOWS ITS OF COURSE SURPRISING CAMOUFLAGE

IF ALL THE FACS PICTURES WOULD LOOK LIKE THIS... AND STAY, NOT RIDE AWAY INTO SOME UNKNOWN COMPUTER SPACE

(it is acutally a picture of one of the 'herpes' chemokines I am working with)

MAYBE MY PLOTS TOOK OFF TO PSYCHEDLIC SPACE  -  CAN I COME TOO? 

IT'S MY DATA REALLY.

TRUMPET VOLUNTARY

I miss my trumpet.

I miss playing.

I miss you.

OOOPS

I didn't find out until today that the videos couldn't be viewed because I apparently made them private. That was not intentional, so I post them again:

FALL

Oj I lost it.

How different everything looks here on this blog, depending on which day I read it.
Interesting.


Rather 'fun' to go back and scroll and see what made me excited that particular moment.
And it is like with anything else, it needs to be posted right then because otherwise it loses
meaning.

Like this one.

This is a historical picture because it was taken on Hissingen in 2009. Interesting.

PROGRESSIVE HERPES

Facts about Herpes you might not know:

• viral DNA  - at least 152 kbp
• capsid
• 162 capsomeres
• tegument - layer of proteins
• envelope
• glycosylated and non-glycosylated proteins, lipids and polyamines 

DNA

HSV-1 AND HSV-2  DNA contains covalently linked  components designated

• L  = LONG
• S =  SHORT

Each component is composed of unique sequences, U (L) and U (S).      

                 

Current studies show that these DNA encode at least 84 different polypeptides mapped in different regions.  

How does HSV infect a cell?

HSV attaches to the cell surface receptors, fuse its envelope to the plasma membrane and allow the de-enveloped capsid to be transported to the nuclear pores.
The DNA is released into the nucleus at the pore.
      

Scheme of infection compared in different viruses.

The key events in viral replication that occur in the nucleus include:

• transcription
• DNA synthesis
• capsid assembly
• DNA packaging
• envelopment

CONCENTRATE, FOCUS, EXECUTE!

FLOW JO ANALYSIS

TRAM WAY HOME

HSV envelopment and release

BE RIGHT BACK

This is the entrance door to main desk inside
Fjäderborgen. This door (sort of folding door) is always
open, but last Tuesday it was closed and had this sign up.
Be right back (Kommer Strax).
Usually seen in southern European countries
when owner is out swimming or something.
This guy was sweeping the floor in the badminton hall.
Cute.

LICENSE TO BLOG

 I am so alive that I can see the DNA helix with my bare eyes, aj!Be careful with the pairs, they can easily break or switch places...

BÄR DITT BARN SOM DEN SISTA DROPPEN VATTEN -
Björn Ranelid
(perhaps it would be something like: 'Carry your child like your last drop of water')

I started a new project, and this project is being executed in the place of Latent Lucia, and
will partly be acknowledged by Holy Olga. How lucky I am, Katarina is first author!

So, the only chance to get approved for new publishing of one self, is to let go of the old.

I have to put it aside, it is no longer my baby. You really, really need to get it OUT of your system,
otherwise there will never be anything called new, let alone inventive.

DROP YOUR OLD AS YOUR LAST DROP OF WATER -
Latent Lucia.
And we look forward to seeing my name on many publications to come...

AMEN.

GOOD MOOOOAAAOORRRNING WAAOOOORKKK!!! OR ACTAULLY IT SOUNDED BETTER WHEN ROBIN WILLIAMS SAID IT

SO

BAD FINALE

AS LONG AS I AM KATARINA, PRESENCE WILL BE HIDDEN UNDERNEATH AND VAGUELY SEEN. THAT'S WHY I REFUSE TO BE AFRAID. 

I WONDER WHAT MY MOM WOULD HAVE DONE.

AND I WILL NEVER LOSE, EVEN IF THE SCORE SEEM 2-1.
IT AIN'T OVER 'TIL THE FAT LADY SINGS.